I didn’t ask for this

I didn’t ask to be here.

I didn’t ask to lose my job.

I didn’t ask to be behind on my credit card bills.

I didn’t ask to lose focus in school, let my grades slip, and lose my financial aid.

It seems like when things can’t get worse, they are in fact getting worse.

I am religious, but not as religious I’d like to be. I want to pray, but can’t even find the energy to do wudhu and pray 5 times each day.

I didn’t ask to be here, in my situation. But I know it is all for a reason. I know whatever I’m going through, it will pass. It will be just a memory. The storm doesn’t last forever, although it may seem like it. The clouds will clear, the sun will break through and shine like it did once before. Whatever is the reason for my recent string of bad luck, I just know it is going to change soon.

So whatever you are going through, just know it will not last. Remember, in order for stars to shine, it has to be dark.




Patience. Patience is key.

God will test your sabr (patience) in ways you don’t realize . 

But when you do realize, just know you’ll be rewarded.

Once you get to heaven, you will realize every hardship was worth it . 

Once you get to heaven, you will realize why you had to be so patient .

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Why I’m NOT excited for Ramadan

For those who do not know, Ramadan is the ninth month in the Islamic calendar. It’s a month where we refrain from eating and drinking from sunrise to sunset. It’s more than just that. Ramadan is the month the Quran was revealed to the Prophet Muhammad. It is also a time to get closer to God, perhaps by praying more or reading the Quran, and bettering one’s self spiritually, morally, etc. It is also a time for families to come together and celebrate.

Sounds pretty nice, right?

Yes, if you were born into a Muslim family.

I am not looking forward to this time of year. Last year, my first year as a convert, I had trouble fasting. How is a fatty such as myself going to refrain from eating/drinking for sunrise to sunset, when normally I have a snack every 15min?! (exaggeration)

This year I’m not really concerned about the whole “not eating or drinking”.

I just notice how the other Muslims I follow on social media are so excited for Ramadan. I was focusing on their happiness and eagerness as it approaches later this month. Why wasn’t I like this? It didn’t take me long to figure out why.

I am alone. I have no Muslim family or friends. I have no one to share this happiness and eagerness with. I have to fast by myself (sometimes even breaking the fast early because I get asked “why aren’t you eating?”), I have to pray by myself, I have to read the Quran by myself, I have to have Eid by myself.

From a young age, Muslim children are exposed to the meaning of Ramadan firsthand. They have all of their family together, make traditional meals, and just enjoy the holiness of this month.

It’s hard for converts such as myself. I wonder if anyone else feels slightly like this..?