A letter to Atheists

Who created you? Do not say your mother and father, but if you are certain of that, then who created them? Your grandparents, right …well who created them? And so on and so forth.

Who created the trees, the mountains, the sea and all its creatures? Who created all the layers of the earth? Who placed the stars in the sky? Who programmed all of our organs? Who programmed our heart to continuously pump blood, our lungs to continuously need oxygen, and our brain to process information? Yes that is their function, but who gave them that function? 

God. But you might be thinking which god.

Allah is the one and only god, the creator of the heavens and the earth. He gives you life, will cause you to die, and will bring you to life again in the hereafter.

Allah made everything possible. You believe in the Big Bang theory but you should believe in the one who caused it to explode. Nothing on earth or in the universe is just a coincidence. This was all in Allah’s plan. 

How can you explain DNA? There are literally instructions inside our body on how to create another person. How do baby sea turtles know to go back into the ocean once they hatch? How do caterpillars know how to build themselves a cocoon? It is Allah who programmed all of this. 

Allah is not comparable to anyone or anything else. Allah does not have a son or any partners that would be in relation to him. He is one. Comparing a person to Allah is underestimating Allah’s power. He created everything, he is not like his creation. If he were, that would take away from his uniqueness. He can not be a person. People have to eat, drink, sleep, and use the bathroom. Allah does not need to do those things for if he did, he wouldn’t be Allah. 

He is all knowing and most merciful. He hears and sees all that you do, and only you will be accountable for your actions whether they be good or bad. So it’s best that you do good. Allah hopes we obey him so we can spend an eternity in heaven. You don’t want to spend an eternity boiling in the blazing fire do you? Another question is why would Allah punish us by sending us to hell for eternity? Well what would you expect? He gave you a life long journey to search for him and turn to him and obey him. You did the opposite, so why do you think you should be rewarded?

Why I’m NOT excited for Ramadan

For those who do not know, Ramadan is the ninth month in the Islamic calendar. It’s a month where we refrain from eating and drinking from sunrise to sunset. It’s more than just that. Ramadan is the month the Quran was revealed to the Prophet Muhammad. It is also a time to get closer to God, perhaps by praying more or reading the Quran, and bettering one’s self spiritually, morally, etc. It is also a time for families to come together and celebrate.

Sounds pretty nice, right?

Yes, if you were born into a Muslim family.

I am not looking forward to this time of year. Last year, my first year as a convert, I had trouble fasting. How is a fatty such as myself going to refrain from eating/drinking for sunrise to sunset, when normally I have a snack every 15min?! (exaggeration)

This year I’m not really concerned about the whole “not eating or drinking”.

I just notice how the other Muslims I follow on social media are so excited for Ramadan. I was focusing on their happiness and eagerness as it approaches later this month. Why wasn’t I like this? It didn’t take me long to figure out why.

I am alone. I have no Muslim family or friends. I have no one to share this happiness and eagerness with. I have to fast by myself (sometimes even breaking the fast early because I get asked “why aren’t you eating?”), I have to pray by myself, I have to read the Quran by myself, I have to have Eid by myself.

From a young age, Muslim children are exposed to the meaning of Ramadan firsthand. They have all of their family together, make traditional meals, and just enjoy the holiness of this month.

It’s hard for converts such as myself. I wonder if anyone else feels slightly like this..?

What is this feeling?

I’m not sure if I am depressed. Some times I am happy, then when I am out having a good time, all of my worries hit me all at once and I’m ready to go home and crawl into bed. I sometimes make excuses when my best friend wants to hang out. I love her dearly, but sometimes I just don’t want to hang out.

There’s other feelings too. I can’t even explain them. I will get home and take off my clothes and just leave them on the floor, not because I’m lazy, but because I simply just don’t want to put them up. Same with laundry. I keep putting it off until absolutely necessary. When it’s done drying, I will not fold them. I will eventually, but not right away. It’s like I don’t have the energy. I’m not sure.

I go to Disney often. I’ll be having a great time, and then all of a sudden everything hits me all at once like a freight train. When I make plans to go out, it’s because I’m actually feeling OK for once at the moment. Then when the time comes, I ask myself “Why did I make these plans?” I will go out and sometimes enjoy myself. But all the while I’m out, I’m just looking forward to laying in bed later.

If you would ask me what I like to do, I’d honestly stay, “Stay in bed and do nothing” . I just would rather lay in bed because I feel as if my problems and worries go away.

I’m not sure what these feelings are. It’s a consistent thing, not once a week or twice a week. It’s every single day.

We’re not oppressed¬†


How beautiful is the woman who hides her beauty?

Is she oppressed?

No she is not oppressed. A woman who dresses modestly and covers herself for herself and for her Creator is far from oppressed.

Why dress modestly?- Dressing modestly is for the woman, her husband, and God. Imagine if a woman goes out to do shopping and running errands and she is wearing a very tight shirt and short skirt. These tight and revealing clothes shows the figure of her chest and her butt. When she walks by men, naturally the men will look at her, who knows what he could be thinking! He is having impure and lustful thoughts about another man’s wife! Dressing modestly is out of respect that the woman has for herself and her husband. Why should she need to seek the attention of another man when she is married? It is best to stay covered. If a woman is not married, then she does not need to show off her body to any man, her body should be saved for her husband’s eyes only. She is not eye candy for every man! God also commands believing woman to practice modesty. It is stated in¬†the¬†Quran 24:31 that believing women should lower their gaze and guard their modesty. They should not display their beauty to any male except to their husband and their immediate family. Modesty is also talked about in the previous verse,¬†Quran 24:30 that believing men should also lower their gaze and guard their modesty. Men should lower their gaze when in the presence of a women because he could be staring/fantasizing about another man’s wife! How awful.

Are women in the hijab oppressed? No, our Muslim sisters are not oppressed! Hijab empowers women, and when I wear it I personally feel more self confident. Women choose whether or not they wear the hijab. Yes it is commanded by God in the Quran that women cover themselves, but if the woman chooses not to then that is her decision between her and God. Nowadays with today’s societies and how the media displays Muslims, some women are discouraged to wear the hijab for fear of being targeted by racists. It is very sad that a simple scarf covering one’s hair somehow correlates to being a radical terrorist… Are women forced to wear head coverings and dress modestly? Not in Islam! Some cultures might force women to dress a certain way but that is¬†culture, not Islam.

I Thought All Lives Mattered?

Unless you’re:

  • an immigrant
  • disabled
  • a minority
  • any religion besides Christian

 

America doesn’t care if you’re an undocumented immigrant just trying to provide a better life for your family. Little do they know how long and how expensive it is to become a legal citizen.

America doesn’t care that you’re fleeing your war stricken country to come to America so your family isn’t awaken by the sound of bombs in the middle of the night. According to America, you’re a terrorist, your wife is oppressed, and you are raising your children to be future terrorists.

America doesn’t care that you’re a straight A honor roll African American student going to a state university on a full (non athletic) scholarship. Even when you graduate, no matter what, you will get turned down a job offer because your name is DeMarcus or Shaniqua .

Notice how whenever someone says “Black Lives Matter” “Brown Lives Matter” “Minority Lives Matter” the most common response is “ALL LIVES MATTER”. “All lives matter” is just a response which basically translates to “Shut your black asses up.” Yes, all lives matter. It’s not “Black lives matter more than any other lives”, it’s “Black lives matter, too”. Just the fact that we even have to¬†remind¬†people that a certain group matters says a lot about society as a whole.

Black Lives Matter was created to protest the¬†unjustly¬†murders of blacks by white police officers. The most common question is “Why doesn’t BLM protest black on black killings?”

Just like the white police officers, some blacks don’t value the life of other blacks.

I’m ready.

I’m ready to be married. I’m ready to call him ‘my husband’ and I’m dying to have his last name. I’m ready for our small wedding with only our friends and families. I’m ready to search for a house with him. I’m ready to pick out furniture and other household stuff at IKEA. I’m ready to grocery shop and cook our first meal in our new place.

I’m also ready for all the hardships, arguments, and obstacles we’ll face. I’m not seeking a perfect marriage, because likely that such a thing doesn’t exist. But I am seeking the next best thing. I want a relationship with Allah as our foundation. I am ready for every single thing marriage has to offer for us.